One of those days

Since I received my visa things have been a little crazy to say the least. While most days I am so excited and ready to go, I do have the occasional overwhelming day, or the I can't believe I'm actually doing this day, and yes sometimes I have a sad day. Today is one of those days. Maybe sad isn't the best way to describe it but I really can't think of a better word at this exact moment. Don't get me wrong, I am so so excited about moving (ready for it to just happen already!) but its all the goodbyes and "ends" that are hard. I know its not like i'm leaving forever or anything, but essentially i'm leaving the live i've had in Little Rock for the last few years for a new adventure full of unknowns, which can be a little scary. The biggest thing about moving that has been the hardest is leaving my job. I know a job is just a job but for me it didn't feel like just a job. This was my career, the thing I went to school for 4 years to learn how to do. The thing I spent countless hours working in my classroom and taking work home. It was the thing I got to do every day for 3 years, everyday I got to be around a bunch of crazy but amazing kiddos that made my day so much better. I know your job should not be your life, but it wasn't just my job I felt like it was my calling and my passion. So its really hard knowing i'm not going to be in the classroom this year. I know its not forever, one day i'll teach again. Today was the first day of inservice, so I knew today I would be a little sad and bummed that i'm not there with my friends and coworkers. I'm not going to lie i'm sure next week when the first day of school for the kiddos rolls around I'll be a little sad again, but thats ok.