"A change would do you good"

It's bright and early on Saturday morning and these are the lyrics playing in my head. I'm not going to lie, I do love me some Sheryl Crow. Her cd's were some of my favorite lake music! I guess change is the topic on my mind over these last few weeks. I know, not like I haven't had enough change in the last 12 to 16 months...(you know...moving half way across the world, starting a new job, living with my cousins, meeting my husband, getting married, etc!) to say the least its been a huge year and a half of change so why on earth do I feel like I need another one? I honestly don't get it. As a kid and teenager, I HATED change! I was such a homebody and I loved the little bubble I lived in. I guess all of that started to change when I went to College and had to change classes every semester, new roommate every year and living in different dorms. I guess now I just having a hard time sitting still.

We've had a lot going on these last several weeks. They've been very busy and a bit overwhelming. I found out a few weeks ago, I did not get the teaching job I applied for at my school. I'm not going to lie, it was very upsetting. More so in the way the situation was handled. It was handled very poorly and to be honest I don't feel like I was really considered for the position. But for myself to move on I need to forgive and forget, which is something I'm still working on. But at the end of the day, God has my life in his hands, he knows my heart is in the classroom and I know I will be able to teach again one day.

Its the end of the school year, even though i'm not teaching I still have a lot of end of year things to finish up with my job and considering the fact that I begin another part of my job (Vacation Care) the day after school gets out, doesn't leave a lot of time to get stuff done. Oh, yeah and also preparing to be gone from work for 3 weeks! And is December, which means Christmas time! To be honest, I haven't even thought of Christmas. I have only bought 1 gift, we haven't and won't put up a Christmas tree, and there will be no Christmas cards from the newlyweds this year. It does make me sad, but it doesn't even feel like Christmas yet. I'm hoping when we arrive home next week and step off the plane in Memphis, TN and are hit with that winter weather, it will start to feel like Christmas.

One week from now we'll be on the plane! I'm probably the only person excited about traveling for 24 hours, including a 14 hour flight. Its weird, I remember in college I had lots of friends who lived far from school so they always got to fly home for the holidays and me only living 2.5 hours had to drive home. I remember thinking, one day I hope I live somewhere that I can fly home for the holidays...yeah, be careful what you wish for! Saying that i'm excited about going home is an understatement. I'm so ready to be in a familiar place again with familiar people. And knowing that i'm 1 week away from seeing and hugging my family and friends, some of my favorite people in the world puts the biggest smile on my face. I've heard about the reverse culture shock thing, but i'm not worried about it. I honestly think we're going to be too busy and won't be there long enough to have to deal with that, but I guess we'll see.

Whether it be our short trip to the US or something else God has planned, I feel a change is in the air. We just need to keep praying and trust in God's plan for our lives. I'm excited to see what maybe the next chapter in our lives. And I know that no matter what it is or where we go that God with take care of us and He has given me the most amazing man to share the journey with.